A few years ago I attended a channeling. A psychic from England named Paul came to Marengo. HE channels an American Indian named RED CLOUD. A friend encouraged me to go and I was hesitant. I did not really believe in “channeling”.

When I arrived, I took a seat in the back of the room. I recognized many of the people who had come.
Paul is a very gentle and mild mannered man. HE explained that he belonged to a meditation circle. After one particular mediation, the rest of the group told him that he had been speaking during the meditation and the voice belonged to RED CLOUD. HE now travels around and does readings for people and then had a channeling or two depending on how he is guided.

Paul went into meditation. His demeanor changed and he started talking in a deeper, slower voice.
This voice was RED CLOUD. I continued to feel skeptical.

Then someone in the room asked about our life purpose.

RED CLOUD stated that we are here to love each and every person we meet. He said that every person we meet mirrors some part of us and is here to help us heal thoughts we have about ourselves. Though this is not exactly a new message, I felt a huge resonance with what was said.

I have read stories of people that are so loving that they have healed people by just being in their presence such as people in prison. They love all equally. Though I try and do this, I find that I still avoid or feel afraid of people that are scary or different from me even though we are really from the same creator.

I have wanted to be able to be that loving person.

I want to love others like Jesus did. I want to see them in their pure holy light. I think my religion at the time focused on going to church, praying and following rules. Rules that at times seem against Jesus’ teachings to love others as we love ourselves. Rules that let us think that as long as we are going to church we are saved even if we are not loving in our lives.

So, I started to practice heart math. It helped me to shift into neutral, take a breath. I learned that many times we react because a part of our brain is wired that way. It learns as we grow up how to react to certain events. I also learned that we can short circuit that reaction. We can shift to neutral.
This process takes lots of practice. And even if we practice it all the time we will still have setbacks. The more stressful your job or your family is ,the more practice you need.

Last week I was going for a test at the local hospital. Two days before the test, a hospital rep called to tell me that I would have to pay my deductible. Did I want to put it on my visa?
Boinggggg! I just snapped and told her in a not so loving way that she could wait until I got there the next day! (How would you like to have her job!) She told me that I was not scheduled the next day, but actually the following day. She did not react to my crabbiness at all. She transfered me to scheduling and they confirmed that my test was two days away.

Afterwards, I felt terrible that I had been unloving. As it turned out she had been an angel to me because I found out that I had put the wrong date on my calender.

Besides apologizing, one of the things I did is relive the conversation and see it the way I would have liked it to be instead of the way it was. It is practice.

It also shows that at times we react and we do not even know why we reacted the way we do. We can relearn but it is a slow process .

Well, I hope you have lots of love and joy and smiles today. Blessings, Eileen